what am I going to do, what am I going to do, what am I going to do?

I quit my backup job today because it will not even come close to paying my bills.

Now I’m completely out of a yob.

I mean I hate talking about it over and over but it completely consumes my thoughts, the job search.

I am slated to start on the 15th at this place that I do not think I will enjoy working at, but it will pay the bills. However, two days ago the boss emailed me asking me to start a week early, which I’m unable to do. I wrote them back a rather short email talking about how I had told them I was not available until the 15th. Then, the boss wrote me back “I need to talk to you about this guy” in a reply that I think was supposed to be a forward to someone else. So I might be fired already, who knows.

I’m just really at the point where I’m sick of working for places where I’m not valued as an employee, but I just can’t find one. In any field at all that would hire me. Anyone out there have any suggestions? You know me, I’m smart, I’m hard working, but I just can’t get a break from anyone when they see I’ve been flying planes for two years.

There was a great opportunity from a guy who used to work at the company that’s laying me off, and I thought I had a decent shot at it, but he announced that he received 225 resumes, which means I have no chance of this job. It was an opportunity of a lifetime too. Shame

This whole thing is pretty demoralizing. I’ve always been really good at what I do, but because I’m in an industry where they look at solely the number of hours you have in experience, nobody is willing to give me a chance given other credentials. I know I could do a lot better of a job in tons of different industries outside of aviation too, but nobody wants to give me a chance because they think I’m some inept level-puller.

I just want a break! Something to go my way for the first time in a few years. I’d really appreciate it.

I need a miracle.